As the days go by more and more new faces show up to our base. To the point where we now have close to 130 people and the max is supposed to be 100. I sarted out as one of the new people and as the tme has gone by I am becomming one of the people who has been here a little longer than the newer people who are arriving. One of the things alot of people say when they leave is to remind the people who have been here to maybe say Hi to the new people and try to help them out. It's really depressing to see some of the people who have been here for awhile and just how standoffish they act. They aren't obligated to be nice, or even speak to anyone, but it's sad to see someone who is selfless enough to volunteer to help Haiti, but doesn't have the patience to say hi to someone new who looks lost. It's only about 5% of the people here, but thats oo many in my opinion. We are all tired and we are all hot and annoyed. That doesn't mean you have to be a complete jerkoff.
It's funny though, to see the people who have been here a little longer and with that they think they are better than anyone else. I'm pretty sure it just means they have been unemployed longer than the rest of the other people and had a chance to volunteer sooner. Some of them are here for three meals and a cot, and they call this home, even though they don't speak to more than five people here. It's a real shame because most of us have this family mentality. Their's always one asshole in every family though, I guess. It just boggles my mind that someone can be nice enough to volunteer to come help Haiti, but not nice enough to introduce themselves to someone they are going to be living with for months to come. Some of the long term people are absolutely amazing, don't get me wrong. It's just funny, you would never see a new person come in here and be as pretentious as the ones who have been here longer.
Oh well, I am here for me anyway, and the people of Haiti, and I will continue to just kill them with kindness and joke my way through the next couple of weeks. I have made some friends for life here and each relationship I have made here is likea beautiful portrait of art. I know their are some people here who don't like me, and I'm really not concerned about them at al, because if you don't like me that means you must be one miserable fuck. Because I do everything I can to make sure everyone can at least crack a smile for thirty seconds a day here. I think they need to implement the 30 day mental health break rule to EVERYONE, because some of these people you can tell are just totally strung out and in need of some other type of life other than Haiti. The problem is, the people who don't leave for the break are the people who either can't afford it, or have nowhere to go because they have been cast out of regular society and found their only home here. I can call this place home, I also know I have a home with my real family as well. I have a feeling some of these people lack alot of love in their life, and they stay here because it's the only place where they feel like their life means ANYTHING.
Thats all for my rant of the miserable people. Their are too many people here I love, and so many awesome people here. Even the jerkoffs you have to respect, but I sure as fuck will never like them and I'm sure they won't like me. So, I am gonna continue to do me, while they look at me like im some kind of asshole. I'll keep on smiling.
Miss my friends. 13 days.
LOVE
Dan
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